Troubled love -PART 1-

Wriggling Day. 7 sweeps old and my Lusus still hasn't uttered my name yet. I'm tired of people calling me "Teal and Seadweller." I walked up to the octopus and she looked at me. "When will you give me my name?!" I asked and it put a tentacle to my mouth. "Sorry. But i want my name." I added more quitely. She hated loud noises. "Kainam Dawmei." She said and i gave her an odd look. She blinked and i walked away. "Kainam? Tis ok i guess." I said and walked to my respiteblock. My husktop beeped. "Who wants to talk to me now?" I groaned and it was Eridan.

(CA): hey teal you there i havve to talk to you
(UT): Tis no longer Teal or Seadweller, now its Kainam Dawmei.
(CA): ok kai i havve feeling for a certain someone and i dont knoww wwhat to do
(UT): Depends on who it is. If its me so help me I'll turn you into fish paste!
(CA): your threats do not scare me i am only pale for you nothing more nothin less aside the point i need your help
-I took his words a little harshly-
(UT): So you wouldn't consider me a Matesprit at all? (.... I guess im not that special anymore.....
(CA): NO! i didnt mean it that way we were fated moirrails i just dont feel for you like i do this other girl
(UT): HM! Why dont you go ask Karkat about your RedRom problems instead of coming to the girl who wanted to be your Matesprit!!

-I left the chat with aqua tears streaming down my cheeks-

My computer chimed and it was Karkat.

(CG): WHY DID YOU GIVE THIS DEPRESSED FISHDICK TO ME. HE FEELS REALLY BAD FOR WHAT HE SAID TO YOU AND WONT FUCKING SHUT UP ABOUT IT.
(UT): He should feel bad!! He should know better than to play with my feelings.
(CG): GO OVER TO HIS HIVE AND MAKE THINGS BETTER FOR FUCKS SAKE!! HURRY BEFORE HE COMES OVER HERE TO WHINE IN HIS PATHETIC SQUABBILING VOICE!! I DO NOT WANT TO DEAL WITH THIS NOR DO I HAVE THE TIME OR PATIENCE TO.

-CG has left-

I sighed and closed the Trollian chat client. "So many things!! SO MANY FEELS!!" I screamed and looked out over the ocean. "Whoa sis. Calm yo mothafuckin tits. Its ok." A familar stoner voice said. I smiled and spun around in my chair to see Gamzee Makara. My best friend. "I thought my Lusus hated you?" I said and he sat on the couch. "I guess not anymore. Happy mothafuckin Wriggling day by the way sis." He smiled and i went to go sit next to him. "I got my name. Kainam Dawmei." I said and he hugged me. "Suits you better the other mothafuckin names people called you." He said and i blushed. I could smell the sopor slime on him and sighed. "I would say to stop eating sopor pies but its what you want to do." I said and he smiled. "If you want i can." He said. I was taken aback. "What! You cant! Remeber last time! You killed everyone." I said. "But you sister, brought them back to mothafuckin life!! Like a miracle." He said with a gleam in his eye.

True i did bring everyone back to life, but it wasnt easy and i dont want to go over the story. I bit my bottom lip and he pulled my chin up. "I will be your miracle and stop." He said with a stoner smirk. I smiled and blushed a deeper aqua from how close he was now. Almost as if he wanted a kiss. He pulled me closer, i closed my eyes and started to reach my lips out to his, when i could feel his breath on my lips a loud scream echoed from my tube slide. "KAIIIIIII!!" It had to be Eridan. I groaned and saw him struggling to climb up the chute.

"Dont just stand there!! Help me!!" He cried and i grabbed my scythe and held the staff the him. He grabbed it and i yanked. Gamzee caught the younger troll and i rolled my eyes. "Karkat said you were going over to his place! Cant you see i have company?" I gestured a hand to Gamzee. "Sup bro." The juggalo said Eridan sat up and stood in front of me. "I thought about wwhat you said and im sorry. Wwill you be my Matesprit?" He asked with a faint purple blush. I crossed my eyebrows and put a hand on his shoulder. "I'm not rejecting you because i was going to ask you the same thing but Gamzee was going to ask me somthing. Gamzee?" He looked at me and an indigo shade faded through his clown makeup. "Uh right! I was fixing to ask this little miracle sister if she would be my Matesprit bro, if your ok with that." He said and Eridans cautiousness turned into rage. "No! Its not ok!! I asked first!! She actually wanted me to be her Matesprit!! Why would she want to be with a Sopor eating, Faygo drinkin clown who likes horns and is a Landdwweller!!??" He shouted and i put my blade to his throat. "Kanaya may have killed you, i may have brought you back to life and I'll be damned to kill you for saying that to him." I hissed. He gulped and Gamzee pulled me away. "Just go Eridan. Lusus will lead you out." I said and a tentacle picked him up and carried him out. I stood there for moment and dropped the scythe and leaned back on the clowns chest. "If you were meaning for me to be your Matesprit then i want to be yours too." I said and he tightened his grip on me. "Sure thing Kainam." I smiled and looked down at my tube slide to the ocean.

"A swim?" I asked and he let go and pulled off his shirt. "Alllllllll riiiiight." He said i had to avert my eyes from his muscular torso. I changed into my swim shorts, pulled the large bead out of my hair pulled it over my shoulders. "Damn sis. You lookin fine." Gamzee said i blushed. "Go!" I pushed him to the slide and he went through. "Imma go next!!" All i saw was a flash of orange and black and grey. "Why didnt you tell us you had a water slide?" Vriska asked. "Because i hate people coming to my hive. Why not just have a party?" I asked and turned. Everyone was here. I sighed and Eridan smiled. "So, now evveryone knowws wwhat Kais huge hivve looks like. Party time!" He said and rolled my eyes. "Fine I'll throw a party." I groaned and went down the slide to my natural home.

I could smell the ocean and the fins behind my ears stretched out and lengthened. 'Home.' I thought and flipped over to my belly and stuck my arms out above my head and hit the water and dived down about twenty feet. Blue as far as the eye could see. My gills rehydrated themselves and i took a big breath. "How does it feel to home?" Eridan asked and i closed my eyes in annoyance. "Its nice. I still like living on land though." I said and swam up.

I broke the surface and most everyone was in and having a good time. Some one was missing. I listed them off. Gamzee, Vriska, Feferi, Eridan, Nepeta, Equius, Kanaya, Sollux, Terezi, Karkat, me. Tavros was gone. I looked around and he was on the beach, looking really sad. He was off his wheelchair with his feet in the water. I swam up to him and he hugged me. "I want to swim but i cant. Both ways i mean." "I can fix that." I said and stood up. He gave me a questioning look. I took his hands and hoisted him on my back. "Uh, Teal.... Please, I'll be fine." I partly ignored him and started back into the water.

I was to the middle of my torso and he tightend his grip around my horns. "Please dont take me any further. I just wanna sit." He said and i stopped. "Ok." I held him bridal style and sat on a rock. "This better?" I asked and he nodded. "Tavros!" Vriska called and he perked up. "My Sprit calls to me." He said shyly and i carried him to her. "Love must stay together." I said and she smiled. I swam around for abit more and sat underwater with my Lusus and i sighed.

It was about the time for the sun to come up and the day monsters to come out and play. "Isn't about time for your mothafuckin bedtime sis?" Gamzee hugged me from behind. "Maybe. Or maybe not." I said as he swam up to the surface. He was so sexy. His inky black hair refused to give in to the weight of the water and stay messy, his clown makeup had washed away, his golden eyes stood out from the grey skin. So perfect. Other than the Sopor slime addiction and Clown Religion. Oh well.

He seemed to stare into my psyche through half lidded eyes and a goofy smile. I had to giggle and smiled even bigger. "Now that's my girl!! A laugh for a miracle!" He said and i looked down with a smile. "Dont hide your mothafuckin smile Teal. Let it be seen by all the messiahs!" He pulled my chin up where i blushed and had the biggest smile i could make. "Better!" He hugged me and i wrapped my legs around him and hugged him. "I think if i remeber correctly i owed you somthing before we were so rudely interrupted." He said. I noticed he didnt use his usual speaking quirk and he rest a hand on the small of my back. He pulled me closer just enough for me to smell his Faygo breath. 'So slow........ Come on....' I thought and moved my fangs around in circles around each other in impatientence. He noticed and smiled lightly. "Come on Kai." He led me out to the beach and to his hive.

I've been here before but it was becuase i was stopping Gamzee from killing Karkat. It reeked of baked sorpor and Faygo. A rainbow array of blood colors still stained the grey walls including my own. I shuddered and he lead me to his respiteblock. Still littered with clown junk and pie tins. It had an odd smell and i cringed when he stepped on a horn. He let out a shrill cry and stepped on more horns and finally crashed into his recooperacoon. I giggled and braced myself. My hand landed in a sopor pie and Gamzee let out a deep throaty growl. "Lick it." He said. I gave him an incredulous look and peered down at my lime green hand. "Its good for your mothafuckin soul." "But it will fry your think pan." I removed my hand from the slime and did as he requested.

The taste didnt really affect me but the way it messed with my head. Everything glared, sharpened, and i relaxed more. "See what you have been missing out sis?" He asked and i nodded. "So much but not enough to make me look like you and crazy." I said and he hugged me. He didnt smell as bad now. More like grape Faygo and blood. His husktop chimed and he released me to answer it. I followed him and sat behind him to see the conversation.

(CG): I CAN SEE YOU!! COVER UP YOUR WINDOWS AT LEAST. I DONT WANT TO SEE A CLOWN AND A FISH SWAPPING SALIVA.
(TC): SoRrY bRo. ShEs JuSt So FiNe... ) honk... A mIrAcLe ShE wAsNt KiLlEd By Me.
(CG): I KNOW SHE IS. YOU'RE LUCKY YOU ADDICTIVE PRICK. SHE COULDVE DONE BETTER WITH ME. HELL PROBABLY EVEN BETTER WITH ERIDAN. EITHER WAY YOU ARE MAKING ME PUKE IN MY OWN MOUTH.
(TC): ShE cOuLd BuT cHoSe Me OvEr AlL yOu MoThAfUcKaS hEhE. hOnK )

-CG has left the chat-

"Well. According to our little shame blood, you aren't supposed to be mine." Gamzee said after a moment of silence. "But i dont want to be alone!! I red you Gamzeeeeee!!" I whined hugging him tightly. He chuckled and closed his husktop. He started to lean back and nearly crushed me from the force helanded on me. I spat out a mouthful of his soft hair and pulled on his horns. "Fell asleep i guess." I whispered and slid out from under him. "You were quite comfy sis." He said and smiled. "Go to sleep. Imma go home and do the same." I whispered and i dragged him to his recooperacoon and pushed him in. "See you tomorrow love." I kissed his cheek but he lightly cupped my face and moved my lips to his. My pump biscuit sped up from the kiss and he pulled me in with him. "Guess im staying here." The sopor got to me quickly and i yawned. "Little fishy is sleepy." He pulled on my cheeks and i furrowed my brow. "I can do Chumbucket but not fishy." I said and he kissed me again. "My little fish." He whispered and i blushed. "Whatever." I muttered and fell asleep. I felt his warm lips on my cheek again before i sank down deeper into the slime.

I woke up more refreshed than normal. I looked around and Gamzee was still out and cuddling me. He was laying on my chest and snoring softly. I smiled and ran my fingers through his hair. So soft and wavy and curly. I was able to straighten out a section of his hair and he looked good. He didnt seem like he was going to wake up for a while so i slipped from his cuddle hold and got out of the cocoon. Green slime dripped from my body. Gamzees husktop beeped and i looked back at him and answerd it.

(CG): DAT BODY DOE...
(TC): Shut it!! Tis Gamzees as of last night....
-I had to lie- He didnt answer for a moment.
(CG): Ok. LIKE I CARED ANYWAY.
(TC): you were complaining last night that i would be better off with you or Eridan.
(CG): YEA I KNOW I SAID. ITS JUST... I WANTED YOU FOR SO LONG. REMEMBER THE DAY OF THE TRIALS AND WHEN WE BECAME PALE TOGETHER? I WANTED TO MOVE ON AFTER A YEAR OF HANGING OUT WITH YOU. BEFORE GAMZEE SHOWED UP.
-I sighed sadly remembering those times-
(TC): I remember. You've been a good Pale friend and i just dont feel for you that way.
(CG): OK... HAVE FUN BEING WITH AN INSANE CLOWN.
(TC): I happen to find that very sexy!!
(CG): WELL ILL STILL BE HERE...

-CG has left the chat-

I sighed and closed the red laptop. "THE FEELS!!" I yelled and walked outside to the beach. I kicked the sand around in a jumble of emotions and arms embraced me. "Calm down. Its ok." It was Eridan. "Imma join in to." Gamzee hugged me from the front. Eridan tightend his grip around me and pulled me away. "No! She is mine!" He snapped and i sank my fangs into his arm. "Im Gamzees! As of last night!" I yelled. Purple blood dripped from my chin and i shivered from the metallic taste. Highblood tasted the best. "Go have fun Feferi or Nepeta. They seem to like you the best." I said and he had a scared look. "Kainam." Gamzee said i looked at him. "Your eyes are red." Eridan backed up along with Gamzee. "Why is it so hard for people to understand that once i find a Matesprit i wont let them go unless they do." I pulled the throwing knife from my pocket. "The lowest first." I turned and walked towards Karkats house.

"To many feels. I dont want to feel those feels anymore." I muttered. 'Good. Kill them. A woman like you can go on just fine without a man.' A voice said. I stopped and looked around. "And my insanity grows." I said and Gamzee stood in front of me. "Dont kill him. I've already done it once and i dont want you be like me." He put hands on my shoulders and i looked up at him. "What is wrong with me?! A monster thats what!" I shook from his grip. "What about me being your miracle?" He hugged me and i lowered my head. "You are.... I just dont know anymore." I said and he smiled. "That's why I'm here. Eridan and Karkat help me with your problems." He said. I already missed his speaking quirk. "I know." I sighed and gave into his hug. "You'll always be my mothafuckin miracle! A gift from the mirthful messiahs!!" He squeezed me till i thought he would break my back. I let out a small squeak and he let out a growl. I looked up and he was bearing his fangs and had a look to kill. "Wwait!! Dont attack Gam. I was just wwonderin if Kai wwas ok." "She's fine," Gamzee growled. "Just need a moment to herself." His tone and expression softened some as Eridan backed off. I smiled. "Now that what i want to see on your mothafuckin face!!" He pulled my chin up and kissed me. I blushed fell into the kiss. I heard a whisper about changing the shipping wall and immediately thought Nepeta.